08.13.03 - 8:25 pm
Hello to all of you who for some reason come across my blog site and have decided to read it. School has been out for about two months now and somehow, I have less than a month left before it starts up again. Spring arts was mad fun. My dance troupe did really well. My computer crashed and I lost all my music files and Microsoft Word shit so now I'm getting a laptop...which is the only good thing that came out of this horrible situation.
*Wats good ppl?*
05.13.03 - 3:11 pm
Wats good ppl? Sry I haven't written in mad long. I'm at school, and I've been so busy with dance practice and shit. I have two performances in two weeks. Spring arts is nearly here and my cousin Kirsten (Kiki) is coming up from St. Croix. I haven't seen her in like, four years. Anyway, tell me how yesterday, Maria's friend Vino (Vee-no...lol) from Atlanta called and I was in the hallway and we ended flirting with each other on the phone? He's nineteen and sounds mad nice. He was really funny and might be coming up for spring arts...but I'm not going to get my hopes up or anything cuz I haven't seen wat he looks like. He might be ass ugly (with a sexy ass voice) but she says he's cute and looks Dominican...hmm...anyway, I'll write lata. 1
*The agony of boarding school...*
04.06.03 - 4:09 am
Aaaaack. I leave for school in a few hours. I hate leaving home so much! I dunno how the hell imma go to college in England if I can't even be four states away from my mom for long periods of time without bawling. Anyway, my aunt Florence might go with my mom and I so the ride should be fun :\ I still don't want to go. I don't feel like dealing with *people*, I don't feel like dealing with fuckin' teachers and their bullshit ass classes. I love school, but I hate it (contradict much?) *Sighs* Oh well. Guess I have no choice right? Damn. And I don't even have another break until June -- summer vacation. We should at least have a home weekend or something. So last night I went to Burlington and got this really cute pink top and a pair of JouJou jeans, and a plain black jacket for spring...I don't think I'm going to wear it today in the car. No one will be able to see me. LoL. Everyone always comes back to school really late and then when they do come, they never wanna like, go out or anything. They just unpack and go to sleep. Maaad boring. I always end up getting there like, seven hours before everyone (since MD to MA is an 8-10 hour driving depending on traffic, my mom and I usually leave our house around 3-4 AM and get there whenever cuz my mom doesn't like driving in the dark since my school is way up in the boondocks. lol.) Anyway, when we reach MA, theres this really cute mall that my mom is gonna take me to and I'm prolly gonna get some sneakers and maybe another pair of jeans. I got a soccer ball last night -- my first ever! :) It's really pretty. It's bright, bright orange and blue and it cost seventeen dollars. I was so happy. I took it out of the package and started kicking it around as soon as we got home. I have to do sum major practicing this spring/summer to prepare for next season. Last season, I was on the team, but I didn't play in games cuz I was a punk-ass. I'm gonna b hardcore in September and play in games tho. I swear! 1
*Boredom...*
04.04.03 - 7:37 pm
Whas good ppl? I have nothing to do. I am so fucking bored right now. LoL. Well, I joined some Cliques ...you can see them at the bottom of the menu. Imma join some more later. Also, I made a few Cartoon Dolls. They're so cute. I'll upload my others later but so far this one is my favortie:
Don't ask me what's going on with her clothes. It looked funky at the time. LoL :) 1
*Pictures are up!*
04.04.03 - 11: 45 am
What up? So I put up my first two pictures on my picture page(go me! go me!) Right now there's only pictures of Shyma but imma put up more pictures when people decide they wanna give me some. Aightiez? Hellz yes! I am going to Outback Steakhouse tonight for dinner *drools* Then, I'm going to chill at my Aunt Mia and Uncle Ian's house. I didn't even know my uncle was home. He's a pilot so they always have him over in Kuwait nowadays. He like, comes back out of nowhere, stays for like, a day or so and then leaves again. It's mad weird. Anyway, I'm going to get to see my baby cousin Xavier. He's two and he's very cute. I'm gonna see if I can get a picture of him. 1 for now...
*I should be happy...*
04.03.03 - 11: 43 pm
Okay, So I just heard something that should make me really fucking ecstatic, only...for some reason...it's not :( It's one of those things that's like, "Well, I've been waiting for this for a long time and here it is and...I thought i'd be happier then this." It's like my first kiss. In eighth grade, I really really like this boy, right? And I kept thinking that if I could hear from someone that he liked me...if only something could happen with us, I'd feel so much better about myself. I'd know that someone I liked finally liked me back and I'd give up being so obsessed with my fucking body. And then, when we "kissed" in the train station one day, nothing was different. I still felt fat and inferior to everyone around me. *Sighs* Once again, another clear example of how you can't depend on other people to make you happy.
*First entry!*
04.03.03 - 2:53 pm
*screams* I cannot believe that I go back to school on Sunday! Yeah, three weeks off for spring break may seem pretty long to most people, but it's definetely not. It went by sooooo quickly! I still haven't memorized my lines for that stupid play that we're doing in drama and I still haven't finished reading The Lovely Bones for english class. Ugh. I'm such a bum. LoL. And my toes hurt like a bitch. It's been my dream to dance on pointe...ever since I was a baby...and everyone always told me that it was going to hurt but I just started in January and I'm still not that good but *sobs* I didn't think it was going to hurt THIS much. My god. My feet are getting all blistery and everything. Somehow, I thought it'd be different for me...sike! :) Slainte [Cheers!]
